Whats your level of commitment facing change?

Well as of this morning i wasnt sold on it at all. I messed up, then it hit me. All the lessons ive done on here Radical amputation especially It was like wow. This afternoon, i was mad and questioning. I hated myself for falling, but then i realized the only reason i cared was because i was afraid of the consequences. Purity is not obtained by being Good, and or just playing hide and seek with porn like Achan. I have to lop it off with a steel sword and say no crude are you coming back. Then i have to burn its reminents and bury those, then torch the entire pile again. There can be no Dog returning to its own vomit. Its final in or out. I heard a song this afternoon, it said "Go one more, i have a hundred steps to go, but taking one will make it ninety nine." Radical amputation Heck yes, here i come. Im tired of sin. Im tired of double lives. I want God. I want a relationship with him. Im going radical amputation.